-Losing myself again. Wants to pinch again.

-Tiring, when I’m trying to pursue something that I can’t win over.

-Look at me, talk to me. That’s all I ask of, that’s all I want.

-I keep reminding myself it’s only a dream, only a fantasy, but I just can’t stop myself from dreaming this dream. I can’t just forget it and look away.

“It’s hard to keep calm, when I’m obviously jealous.”

“Just because my eyes don’t tear, doesn’t mean my heart won’t cry. Just because I come off as strong, doesn’t mean there is nothing wrong.”

“All I want is someone who will stay, no matter how hard it is to be with me.”

“And when you’re gone, living you own life, making new memories and meeting new people, I hope you remember me.”

“Everytime I see your eyes I want to walk with you in moonlight”

“I used to know my place was the spot next to you”

“Do you sometimes find it hard to give other people love advice because you don’t even know what to do with yours? I do.”

“What does it mean, when you want to let go, but you just can’t?”

“There’s no point in holding on to something that will never be yours. That’s why today, I’m letting you go.”

“Think twice before leaving a space in someone’s heart, because it’s difficult to imagine the pain, when someone else is filling your space.”

“We sometimes think we want to disappear but all we really want is to be found..”

“Why couldn’t I be the one?”

“You have given and taken a lot from me. You gave me a reason to smile, but you took away my ability to love anybody else.”

“I could live without you if I wanted to. Without you, life would be ordinary, but with you, life is extraordinary.”

“I wish I could have said, all that was in my head.”

“Yes, I’m a guy, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to break your heart intentionally or cheat on you. I’m not like the other idiots out there.”

“The worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are, when they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago.”

“Sometimes the feelings we start to have again, are the same feelings that never really went away.”

“I will never regret you, or say that I wish I’d never met you, because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.”

“I’m trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don’t know how to let you go.”

“Even though you are a liar, if you told me, right now, that you loved me and that you were sorry, I would believe you.”

“You know it’s real when you can’t stop smiling, when your thoughts revolve around her and she’s the one you feel the happiest with”

“Because of you the songs that brought a smile to my lips once, bring tears in my eyes now.”

“Please don’t be in love with someone else…”

“The worst part is, we didn’t even have to be together for you to shatter my heart.”

“There is always that one line in every song that makes me think of you.”

“I know we’re a bit young and it’s a little too early to say this, but I hope you are the one.”

“There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t, at some point, think about you.”

More pick-up lines. Lol.

“Love is like a rubber band, we keep pulling, someone lets it go, and it hurts the one who held on.”

“Do you know why after all this time I’m still here? Because when love is true, it waits.”

“Being single is a choice, some say it’s to avoid heartbreaks, but some choose to be single because they’re still in love with someone.”

“My status might say ‘single’, but my heart is taken.”

“Just because we’re not close anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t care about you.”

“It’s amazing how a few pictures and certain songs can bring back so many memories.”

“I feel like I’m waiting for something that’s never going to happen.”

“You can never “just be friends” with somebody you used to love, simply because a little part of you will ALWAYS love them.”

First post in ages is all quotes/ pick-up lines. Lols.

Just me, my comp, watching movies and downloading even more. Nobody hounding and bothering me. No need to bother about the outside world.

But sadly, the day’s gonna be over. And once more, I’ve to be let loose to the freaking god-damned outside world.

Ps: Been keeping this inside. I don’t care who’s reading this, screw that. Just stop praising the damned lord as well. It irks me, disgusts me, makes me wanna barf. He’s crucified and gone. He didn’t create anything, he didn’t save anything, he didn’t aid anyone. He’s just around to screw us all. End.

I know I sound hateful, to hell with that too. -,-

I know it was not easy from the start, it never was, and I know that for a fact of course.
And of course I have complained time and again, but again, I’m only human, I have just as much right to this and that.
Though yes, this is a service that I have agreed to do. It’s a service, I get the idea. For my whole life, I have just been serving others. Helping and listening out others, etc. I’m even doing childcare, serving for children of the future. I volunteered yes, but hell, who cares for the CIP hours. I already have 97 hours, I did it out of my own free will. I never dread doing any of these that I CHOSE to do. Honestly I’m glad that I’m able to experience all these. They’re not flies not worth protecting, not worth giving, I know I should not give up on them. I did not. Open your ears, ask around, I’m still doing what I can. Will they thank me for the class tee, if we get it done? That I don’t care. I’m glad I’m able to give, because I don’t want to see anyone living a life as unfortunate as mine. Though not when I’m just taking the rap for them.
But then again, when I have done and cared so much for the people out there, who’s there to do the same for me. I know some do. I recognise them and I’m thankful towards them. I don’t ask for much, I just want people to appreciate me for what I’ve done. I may be all smiles and laughing at times, but learn to see through the masks.

We’re being groomed as leaders, yes. But at the same time, we have our own lives to lead. I am just as much of an individual as everyone else, I have things I want to do for myself as well.

If it’s about serving, I have done well. I’m bad-tempered, I’m volatile, I’m stubborn, I’m especially good at criticizing, I’m not the best at leading. And I’m trying to change, people just don’t see it. I don’t mind receiving advices, but people just know how to misunderstand.

And if by chance the two of you read this and get angry, you’ve misunderstood me, again.

Part 2:
People say I am hardworking. Sure I guess I am. I spend almost the whole of my 15 years doing my best to surpass the cream of the crop I’m in. Everytime I fail. But I always tell myself: “No, I can still try again next time”. This time, it’s the same. I won’t stand down. But I do realise that, no matter how hardworking I am, I don’t have the talents, don’t have the smarts. Fate is not on my side, be it on the court, or on the desks. But never mind, I won’t be defeated. One day, I’ll surpass all of you, I’ll be the superior being.

The nerd god arrives next week. (Y). I’ll make a come back.

Yes, no matter how much I tried controlling my use of it, all I want to do now is to curse and swear.

I want to beat the living shit out of someone/ anyone/ something/ anything.

Nothing changed. Nothing ever freakin works out. No matter how much I work.

No one ever understands either. Look past my eyes and tell me you see the pain. You never learn, deepshits.

On the verge tears, but no one will ever know anyway. No one will ever CARE.

Someone teach me how to vent my frustrations. Blogging doesn’t work, doing this only stacks the pain.

Though I’m really tired these days.. Well, at least I’ve managed to stay awake for every lesson for 2 days, even Chem. But when I get home I’m so tired and shag I just want to sleep. Maybe I shall not even read Things Fall Apart on the bus.. Just sleep for the 20 minutes journey.

Haven’t even done a thing today either. Shall make up for lost time during tomorrow’s reading period/ recess/ lunch.

And I have decided, to only use my computer at 9pm EVERYDAY (try my best for weekends :X). Don’t want to get distracted so easily anymore.. Because, I simply want 6 As.

BOOYA, THE FIGHT BEGINS TOMORROW. AND I’LL BEGIN WITH AN EPIC COUNTER, FOLLOWED BY AN UPPERCUT, AND THEN FINISH OFF WITH A STRAIGHT WITH FULL STRENGTH. Random much.

Ok I shall provide analysis for non-lit students.

Here, counter refers to a counter strategy, which is my plan to only use comp at 9pm each day.
When you do an uppercut, your punch begins from the bottom and goes up, referring to my picking up whatever knowledge that I should know by the exams if I haven’t done so. EPIC MUGGING.
The straight with full strength, my final blow in this ‘boxing match’, means just PIA when it’s finall the EOYs!!!

Ok random much. kthxbai.

EOYs are so near. Mug mug mug.

Meh.