Archive for May, 2010

The only result that I’m happy about is my Lit. :D. Though it isn’t the best (of the class, and of my abilities). I felt that it was the only one that’s worthy of me being happy for. 61, not the best indeed, but still one of the highest scores already. 😀

And thanks Bernard and Siewyi for your encouragements.
(Though Sooyoung’s flying kiss worked better!) 😀


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And yet again, even though I’ve worked hard, it wasn’t enough.

Wasn’t particularly happy about any of my results, not even both My Math. A1 for E.Math. Yes A1, high for many of you. Yes I was impressed at first. But look at the number of careless mistakes I made. 9 marks gone. I absolutely CANNOT accept that. A.Math was shit too. Just an in-between B3 only. Not even an A2. Fuck that man, fuck that. I teared 4 times during Chemistry lesson thinking about that.

I’ve cried. I’ve teared. I’m disappointed. I’m desperate, whatever.

I have nothing left. Not even badminton. Yes, I want it a lot. But can I really make the mark? There’s so little time left, can I catch up enough? Can I improve in time for the next tournaments?

So what if my efforts are recognised? So what? It’s a fact that I can’t do well, can’t play well, and that’s all that matters.

Sigh. When can I find happiness? When can I reach the end of the path that just keeps getting longer? When can I reach the light at the end of the road?

Yes I’m feeling sour. Yes I feel like giving up, even though I always don’t.

I’m only human. I can’t help it.

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Loacker Mini from Ms Tan, and the HCJC post-it that came along with it. Lols.

West Zone 3rd place medal and trophy from coaches and teachers.

Remainder of the coloured paper used to make card for Ms Tan. ._.

Run Devel Run album that I saw last Friday!! Want to buy.. But I scared never get Sooyoung’s poster. 😦

Email that Ms Tan sent me. So touched hehe. ._.

Soshified forums is like imba now. ❤

Hold Fast Your Dreams

Hold fast your dreams!
Within your heart
Keep one still, secret spot
Where dreams may go,
And, sheltered so,
May thrive and grow
Where doubt and fear are not.
O keep a place apart,
Within you heart,
For little dreams to go!

Think still of lovely things that are not true.
Let wish and magic work at will in you.
Be sometimes blind to sorrow. Make believe!
Forget the calm that lies
In disillusioned eyes.
Though we all know that we must die,
Yet you and I
May walk like gods and be
Even now at home in immortality.

We see so many ugly things –
Deceits and wrongs and quarrelings;
We know, alas! we know
How quickly fade
The color in the west,
The bloom upon the flower,
The bloom upon the breast
And youth’s blind hour.
A place apart
Where little dreams may go,
May thrive and grow,
Hold fast – hold fast your dreams!

— Louise Driscoll

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A few more hours before the E. Maths MYE papers. Oh gosh. Can’t say I’m really prepared. Slightly worried.. Ah wells, back to studying.. :(. Want to sleep though, am having a headache too..

Today’s Ms Tan’s last lesson with us Lit students. Gosh, will miss her. She’s like my favourite teacher in Nan Hua.. Like the first teacher that praised me and made me feel proud of myself.. Thinking about that single praise kept me going on. Adults only know how to criticise us, they don’t know how much a single sentence can make a difference.

Will edit later on, after the Maths paper. Wish me luck.. 😀

E.Maths paper was freaking easy. No kick at all!! I was even stretching my legs and relaxing around halfway through the paper, in the end still manage to finish the paper!! Hah. I pwned. 😀

Can’t think of anything else to post le, it’s the examinations like what the heck~

Chemistry and History. Choose one to sacrifice. Definitely Chemistry! Zzz! ~.~

Best of luck Ms Tan, may you succeed in everything that you do.

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